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 Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 1:43 am Post subject: Are these experiences real? |
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I wanted to share my story with your audience. I believe it is a
fascinating story about my encounters with the spirit world. I have no
adequate explanation for them, nor do my parents. I'm not sure what
they represent, or if they are hallucinations, but they appear real.
I am at a loss to explain why I have seen angels, ghosts, UFOs and
disincarnated entities for over 7 years now. Such entities have included:
[a] Allen, my father's father.
[b] Jeff Moritz, the former Flagstaff Peace Officer.
[c] Robert Martin, the former DPS Peace Officer.
[c] Ann, my mother's mother and my grandmother.
[d] James, my mother's father and my grandfather.
[e] "Susan", a guardian angel who first visited me in October 1995.
[f] A Siberian Husky, who first appeared the evening my grandmother
past away (in late-July 2002)
[g] My unborn daughter, who has appeared frequently since October 2000.
[h] Lindsey Chainhalt, who first appeared to me last month.
[i] John Candy, the comedian from various movies
[j] Walter Payton, the NFL athlete from the Chicago Bears
[k] An untold number of ghosts and other apparitions, usually in
graveyards, cemeteries and sometimes during church.
[l] At least three distinct encounters with angels, two in Flagstaff and
one while in Paradise Valley.
[m] One unknown UFO encounter, August 2000, flying overhead
south-southwest at a low altitude, absolutely silent and with no
engine noise whatsoever.
These UFOs flew in formation to form a "triangle", at least seven of them
were present and they distinctly resembled flying saucers seen on
television shows and other UFO reports worldwide.
I have also experienced at least two OBEs and one NDE, where I entered
into a bright light and was shown flashes of my life while on earth. This
transpired while I had briefly fallen asleep, and then I was returned to
my body at the top of my head, to which I received a tremendous jolt and
gasped for breath. When I finally became oriented again, I felt tense and
not relieved at all. I did not discuss this with anyone because I felt I
was losing my mind, or part of my mind.
Additionally, I experienced a vision in a dream-like state in which an
angel with a flowing gown brought my unborn daughter to my side, and asked
her when she would like to come to Earth. She was unsure, so the angel
smiled at me and they reentered the light and then the vision and dream
faded away into oblivion.
In July of 2002, right before my grandmother passed away, I had a strange
dream in which a funeral was taking place and I saw a rose-wood coffin in
the center of a church. There were many people there, and Nana (my
grandmother) was lying in the casket holding a black rose. This was
exactly one week prior to when she did pass away, in July 2002.
As well as the Siberian Husky encounter, I went on a walk the day of her
passing and she kept trying to communicate to me during my long walk
around Flagstaff. I walked from my apartment complex over to Target, and
then around the graveyard near the back of target (I usually prayed at the
statue of Jesus and Mary in the back of the graveyard; I believe it is
called "Cavalry Cemetery").
When I prayed there, I asked Nana for help and advice. She said that she
"loved me", and asked that I go to the end of a long road, near a bench, and
there I would find a gift. I followed her instructions (she sounded very
far away, and I could barely understand her), I went to the bench I
thought she was telling me about and found a Cabbage Patch doll sitting on
the bench. It was a simple Cabbage Patch doll, wearing a yellow outfit and
diapers. It must have rained recently, because the bench was still soggy
and the doll was as well. I went home and told my friend about
this, and we took the doll home. In fact, I still have the doll to
this day. I'm not sure why my grandmother led me to this doll, or what
significance it has in my life (if any).
In September of 2003, I also had another dream, in which I was walking
through Nana and Hoppo's house looking for them. The entire house was void
of people, and as I was looking around, I remember in the dream that I
looked up at the grandfather clock in the living room and it struck 9 p.m.
As it was sounding the chimes, the phone rang in the dream, and I rushed
to pick it up. No one was there, however.
In a later dream, just before my grandfather, James, passed away,
I had yet another dream in which my grandmother tried to call me on the
telephone and was attempting to explain something to me, but I couldn't
understand her. I still have no idea what she was attempting to
communicate, but she appeared more lively than at any point during the
past fifteen years.
I have also experienced several psychic "flashes" of information, all of
which have come true to some degree. Before she and I broke up, in March
of 2003 (after over two years together), I had a strange psychic flash
that I would be sleeping alone in my bed in Flagstaff, that it would be
the spring of 2003, and that my friend and I would no longer be friends.
This came true. I also had another psychic "flash" 6 months later, in which
my friend's father raised a glass in toast to me at some sort of wedding,
which (from the flash) appeared to take place in the near future. However,
he was toasting me, not anyone else, which led me to infer that from this
psychic flash I may be picking up information from an event in the cosmic
stream that has yet to occur.
I don't know what all of these experiences mean, nor do I understand them
at all. I don't have adequate explanations for why ghosts, as well as
deceased individuals, feel the need to communicate to me on a daily basis.
I find it unsettling, to say the least. I feel as though I am a conduit
for communication between the living world and the spirit world, and I
don't want to be. I don't need to communicate with them, because they
are always attempting to communicate with me. I have experienced these
things even while on medication for schizophrenia and depression, and
they have not disappeared in the least.
Are my experiences real, or am I hallucinating yet again?
Sincerely,
Paul Allen Panks
dunric@yahoo.com
from Phoenix
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Alan B. Mac Farlane
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 1:52 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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in article caqt1l$550$1@chessie.cirr.com, Paul Allen Panks at
panks@sdf.lonestar.org wrote on 6/16/04 6:43 PM:
| Quote: | Are my experiences real, or am I hallucinating yet again?
Sincerely,
Paul Allen Panks
dunric@yahoo.com
from Phoenix
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it really dont matter paul ... its all a projection dispite there being
something there that gently bends itself to fit what is inside of you
anyway.
if you have fear inside or someother negative emotion that comes from that
mindset ...then that is what is manifested by what is in front of you 24
hours a day in that circle of light you call your place of vision(s).
sometimes that circle of light is blue on black.
sometimes a dream, a vision, a near death trip, being on the otherside
eventually and living la vida loca.
anyhow paul ... keep putting love inside into where the fear is ... see how
things improve that a way ... as compared to the alternative and the fact
you have to carry around something inside of you anyway.
since u r u.
sumbuddie who cares
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John Wilkins
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 2:12 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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Paul Allen Panks <panks@sdf.lonestar.org> wrote:
| Quote: | Are my experiences real, or am I hallucinating yet again?
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Paul,
I'm no expert on these things, but I gather than one account of
schizophrenia is that sufferers hear inner monologues without
recognising they are just that, and identify them as external. Similarly
with visual recollections.
What you "see" and "hear" in your mind are usual and ordinary -
recollections of people, imaginations of discussions with famous
personalities, but the part of the brain that realises these are
internal rather than external is not working properly.
As a result you are experiencing these as real, rather than internal.
Similarly, the psychic flashes - we all are constantly examining the
future possibilities and expectations we have, and it is no surprise
some of them work out - humans are pretty good at planning ahead. We
make connections between events all the time, and if you are unable to
make a clear distinction between reality and fantasy because your brain
is galloping on noradrenalin or some other imbalance, you will find
these to be significant.
UFOs are just things we don't recognise, happening in the sky away from
referents we would normally use to identify them. I have seen three
myself. You don't need to be suffering from an abnormal condition to
mistake them.
OOBs and NDEs are caused by differences in brain states. They are not
really that unusual - in cases of oxygen deprivation, for example, the
brain shuts down parts of it that are used to filter out random activity
and recognise bodily states. Drugs will do it too.
This is my personal take on these matters. Perhaps they will help you.
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John S Wilkins PhD - www.wilkins.id.au
a little emptier, a little spent
as always by that quiver in the self,
subjugated, yes, and obedient. -- Seamus Heaney |
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CAndersen (Kimba)
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 2:28 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au (John Wilkins) wrote:
| Quote: | OOBs and NDEs are caused by differences in brain states. They are not
really that unusual - in cases of oxygen deprivation, for example, the
brain shuts down parts of it that are used to filter out random activity
and recognise bodily states. Drugs will do it too.
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Well, so much for the tons of evidence for the reality of these particular
experiences...
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Pithecanthropus Erectus
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 2:40 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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Paul Allen Panks wrote:
| Quote: | I wanted to share my story with your audience. I believe it is a
fascinating story about my encounters with the spirit world. I have no
adequate explanation for them, nor do my parents. I'm not sure what
they represent, or if they are hallucinations, but they appear real.
I am at a loss to explain why I have seen angels, ghosts, UFOs and
disincarnated entities for over 7 years now. Such entities have included:
[a] Allen, my father's father.
[b] Jeff Moritz, the former Flagstaff Peace Officer.
[c] Robert Martin, the former DPS Peace Officer.
[c] Ann, my mother's mother and my grandmother.
[d] James, my mother's father and my grandfather.
[e] "Susan", a guardian angel who first visited me in October 1995.
[f] A Siberian Husky, who first appeared the evening my grandmother
past away (in late-July 2002)
[g] My unborn daughter, who has appeared frequently since October 2000.
[h] Lindsey Chainhalt, who first appeared to me last month.
[i] John Candy, the comedian from various movies
[j] Walter Payton, the NFL athlete from the Chicago Bears
[k] An untold number of ghosts and other apparitions, usually in
graveyards, cemeteries and sometimes during church.
[l] At least three distinct encounters with angels, two in Flagstaff and
one while in Paradise Valley.
[m] One unknown UFO encounter, August 2000, flying overhead
south-southwest at a low altitude, absolutely silent and with no
engine noise whatsoever.
These UFOs flew in formation to form a "triangle", at least seven of them
were present and they distinctly resembled flying saucers seen on
television shows and other UFO reports worldwide.
I have also experienced at least two OBEs and one NDE, where I entered
into a bright light and was shown flashes of my life while on earth. This
transpired while I had briefly fallen asleep, and then I was returned to
my body at the top of my head, to which I received a tremendous jolt and
gasped for breath. When I finally became oriented again, I felt tense and
not relieved at all. I did not discuss this with anyone because I felt I
was losing my mind, or part of my mind.
Additionally, I experienced a vision in a dream-like state in which an
angel with a flowing gown brought my unborn daughter to my side, and asked
her when she would like to come to Earth. She was unsure, so the angel
smiled at me and they reentered the light and then the vision and dream
faded away into oblivion.
In July of 2002, right before my grandmother passed away, I had a strange
dream in which a funeral was taking place and I saw a rose-wood coffin in
the center of a church. There were many people there, and Nana (my
grandmother) was lying in the casket holding a black rose. This was
exactly one week prior to when she did pass away, in July 2002.
As well as the Siberian Husky encounter, I went on a walk the day of her
passing and she kept trying to communicate to me during my long walk
around Flagstaff. I walked from my apartment complex over to Target, and
then around the graveyard near the back of target (I usually prayed at the
statue of Jesus and Mary in the back of the graveyard; I believe it is
called "Cavalry Cemetery").
When I prayed there, I asked Nana for help and advice. She said that she
"loved me", and asked that I go to the end of a long road, near a bench, and
there I would find a gift. I followed her instructions (she sounded very
far away, and I could barely understand her), I went to the bench I
thought she was telling me about and found a Cabbage Patch doll sitting on
the bench. It was a simple Cabbage Patch doll, wearing a yellow outfit and
diapers. It must have rained recently, because the bench was still soggy
and the doll was as well. I went home and told my friend about
this, and we took the doll home. In fact, I still have the doll to
this day. I'm not sure why my grandmother led me to this doll, or what
significance it has in my life (if any).
In September of 2003, I also had another dream, in which I was walking
through Nana and Hoppo's house looking for them. The entire house was void
of people, and as I was looking around, I remember in the dream that I
looked up at the grandfather clock in the living room and it struck 9 p.m.
As it was sounding the chimes, the phone rang in the dream, and I rushed
to pick it up. No one was there, however.
In a later dream, just before my grandfather, James, passed away,
I had yet another dream in which my grandmother tried to call me on the
telephone and was attempting to explain something to me, but I couldn't
understand her. I still have no idea what she was attempting to
communicate, but she appeared more lively than at any point during the
past fifteen years.
I have also experienced several psychic "flashes" of information, all of
which have come true to some degree. Before she and I broke up, in March
of 2003 (after over two years together), I had a strange psychic flash
that I would be sleeping alone in my bed in Flagstaff, that it would be
the spring of 2003, and that my friend and I would no longer be friends.
This came true. I also had another psychic "flash" 6 months later, in which
my friend's father raised a glass in toast to me at some sort of wedding,
which (from the flash) appeared to take place in the near future. However,
he was toasting me, not anyone else, which led me to infer that from this
psychic flash I may be picking up information from an event in the cosmic
stream that has yet to occur.
I don't know what all of these experiences mean, nor do I understand them
at all. I don't have adequate explanations for why ghosts, as well as
deceased individuals, feel the need to communicate to me on a daily basis.
I find it unsettling, to say the least. I feel as though I am a conduit
for communication between the living world and the spirit world, and I
don't want to be. I don't need to communicate with them, because they
are always attempting to communicate with me. I have experienced these
things even while on medication for schizophrenia and depression, and
they have not disappeared in the least.
Are my experiences real, or am I hallucinating yet again?
Sincerely,
Paul Allen Panks
dunric@yahoo.com
from Phoenix
My daughter has epilepsy, we hope that the recent resection of her right |
frontal lobe has cured it. She certainly has had no seizures since that
surgery.
At most times prior to the surgery, her seizures were controlled
medically. She was taking lamictal and tegretol. The control was not
perfect. Prior to onset of seizures she experienced "auras" which she
interpreted as the seizures as fairies talking to her, telling her they
wanted her to go plau with them. Her mother is a practicing pagan, a
Wiccan, and believes that fairies do in fact exist. Her mother believes
that fairies lead kids into their realm, and the kids have no experience
of time. The kids return to our realm several years later, unaged, and
thinking that only a few days have passed. Her mother warned her not to
go with the fairies when they called her. Her mother also believes in
the science behind epilepsy treatment; she has a strange mix of
intellectualizations.
My daughter's auras gradually weakened over the years as we changed
medications, and she no longer experienced the fairies. Tbey were as
real to her as your experiences are to you. I am not discounting what
you have experienced, but your reality is "enhanced" by your
schizophrenia. Direct experience mingles with memories of fictional
stories and it becomes difficult, if not impossible to discern the
difference.
I learned all this in Developmental Psych, a 200 level course which I
took over 20 some years ago. You are welcome to take it with a grain of
salt. I wouldn't feel so confident if it weren't for my daughter's
experience.
There may or may not be medications which can help you in this. My
advice would be to journal these experiences, and compare them. This
would help you analyze your experiences and perhaps learn how to discern
them from "actual" events.
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Bobby D. Bryant
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 3:03 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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On Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:28:44 +0000, CAndersen (Kimba) wrote:
| Quote: | john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au (John Wilkins) wrote:
OOBs and NDEs are caused by differences in brain states. They are not
really that unusual - in cases of oxygen deprivation, for example, the
brain shuts down parts of it that are used to filter out random activity
and recognise bodily states. Drugs will do it too.
Well, so much for the tons of evidence for the reality of these
particular experiences...
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Tell us more about this evidence.
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Earle Jones
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 3:21 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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In article <caqt1l$550$1@chessie.cirr.com>,
Paul Allen Panks <panks@sdf.lonestar.org> wrote:
| Quote: | I wanted to share my story with your audience. I believe it is a
fascinating story about my encounters with the spirit world. I have no
adequate explanation for them, nor do my parents. I'm not sure what
they represent, or if they are hallucinations, but they appear real.
I am at a loss to explain why I have seen angels, ghosts, UFOs and
disincarnated entities for over 7 years now. Such entities have included:
[a] Allen, my father's father.
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| Quote: | Are my experiences real, or am I hallucinating yet again?
Sincerely,
Paul Allen Panks
dunric@yahoo.com
from Phoenix
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Paul: I believe that help is available for you. Your encounters
with the 'spirit world' are not normal. I believe you need some
counseling / therapy. Please try to find help.
Sincerely,
earle
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John Wilkins
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 3:34 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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Bobby D. Bryant <bdbryant@mail.utexas.edu> wrote:
| Quote: | On Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:28:44 +0000, CAndersen (Kimba) wrote:
john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au (John Wilkins) wrote:
OOBs and NDEs are caused by differences in brain states. They are not
really that unusual - in cases of oxygen deprivation, for example, the
brain shuts down parts of it that are used to filter out random activity
and recognise bodily states. Drugs will do it too.
Well, so much for the tons of evidence for the reality of these
particular experiences...
Tell us more about this evidence.
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I knew this would get a rise, but I am satisfied with Sue Blackmore's
work on NDEs. Still, I'll watch this with popcorn in hand...
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Dr John Wilkins
john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au http://wilkins.id.au
"Men mark it when they hit, but do not mark it when they miss"
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Paul Allen Panks
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 3:54 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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Are those 3 blocks together, or three blocks upside down?
Sincerely,
Paul
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R Brown
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 4:03 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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"Paul Allen Panks" <panks@sdf.lonestar.org> wrote in message
news:caqt1l$550$1@chessie.cirr.com...
| Quote: | I wanted to share my story with your audience. I believe it is a
fascinating story about my encounters with the spirit world. I have no
adequate explanation for them, nor do my parents. I'm not sure what
they represent, or if they are hallucinations, but they appear real.
I am at a loss to explain why I have seen angels, ghosts, UFOs and
disincarnated entities for over 7 years now. Such entities have included:
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It's simple: You're nuts. |
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Ken Shaw
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 4:07 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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John Wilkins wrote:
| Quote: | Bobby D. Bryant <bdbryant@mail.utexas.edu> wrote:
On Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:28:44 +0000, CAndersen (Kimba) wrote:
john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au (John Wilkins) wrote:
OOBs and NDEs are caused by differences in brain states. They are not
really that unusual - in cases of oxygen deprivation, for example, the
brain shuts down parts of it that are used to filter out random activity
and recognise bodily states. Drugs will do it too.
Well, so much for the tons of evidence for the reality of these
particular experiences...
Tell us more about this evidence.
I knew this would get a rise, but I am satisfied with Sue Blackmore's
work on NDEs. Still, I'll watch this with popcorn in hand...
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Back in college I was a participant in an experiment attempting to cause
NDE like symptoms using magnetic fields. I wore a silly looking helmet
that caused me to have a NDE within seconds of being turned on. I saw a
circle of light at a seeming distance and had a sensation of motion
toward it. Of course I wasn't near death it was a simple matter of
interfering with the electrical activity in my brain.
If there is evidence that this phenomena is not a natural occurrence of
the shutdown of the brain due to whatever factor I have never heard
about it.
Ken |
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John Wilkins
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Ken Shaw <none.of@your.biz> wrote:
| Quote: | John Wilkins wrote:
Bobby D. Bryant <bdbryant@mail.utexas.edu> wrote:
On Thu, 17 Jun 2004 02:28:44 +0000, CAndersen (Kimba) wrote:
john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au (John Wilkins) wrote:
OOBs and NDEs are caused by differences in brain states. They are not
really that unusual - in cases of oxygen deprivation, for example, the
brain shuts down parts of it that are used to filter out random activity
and recognise bodily states. Drugs will do it too.
Well, so much for the tons of evidence for the reality of these
particular experiences...
Tell us more about this evidence.
I knew this would get a rise, but I am satisfied with Sue Blackmore's
work on NDEs. Still, I'll watch this with popcorn in hand...
Back in college I was a participant in an experiment attempting to cause
NDE like symptoms using magnetic fields. I wore a silly looking helmet
that caused me to have a NDE within seconds of being turned on. I saw a
circle of light at a seeming distance and had a sensation of motion
toward it. Of course I wasn't near death it was a simple matter of
interfering with the electrical activity in my brain.
If there is evidence that this phenomena is not a natural occurrence of
the shutdown of the brain due to whatever factor I have never heard
about it.
But did you see Jeebus/Buddha/Mohammed/Mithras/Your Mother? It isn't an |
NDE unless there's a deity involved.
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Dr John Wilkins
john_SPAM@wilkins.id.au http://wilkins.id.au
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Matt Silberstein
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 5:00 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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On Thu, 17 Jun 2004 04:03:59 +0000 (UTC), R Brown <rbrown@hotmail.com>
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"Paul Allen Panks" <panks@sdf.lonestar.org> wrote in message
news:caqt1l$550$1@chessie.cirr.com...
I wanted to share my story with your audience. I believe it is a
fascinating story about my encounters with the spirit world. I have no
adequate explanation for them, nor do my parents. I'm not sure what
they represent, or if they are hallucinations, but they appear real.
I am at a loss to explain why I have seen angels, ghosts, UFOs and
disincarnated entities for over 7 years now. Such entities have included:
snip
It's simple: You're nuts.
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Nuts is a horrible word. Paul, you do need to stay in contact with a
therapist and get yourself a good psychopharmacologist. I know some
good ones in the NYC area, but that will not help you. Listen to what
John Wilkins said, he had some solid ideas. But see the doctors. They
have helped you in the past and can still help. There is something,
well, sweet and touching about your posts and I wish you the best of
everything.
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Matt Silberstein
Do in order to understand. |
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Susan S
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 7:02 am Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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[snip]
Are these visions what is happening to you lately? If that is the
case, you may not be taking your medication and need to tell your
doctor. When you are back on your meds, things may be more clear
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Gene Douglas
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| Posted: Thu Jun 17, 2004 1:20 pm Post subject: Re: Are these experiences real? |
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No, they're not. See somebody. A prescription would make them all
disappear.
"Paul Allen Panks" <panks@sdf.lonestar.org> wrote in message
news:caqt1l$550$1@chessie.cirr.com...
| Quote: | I wanted to share my story with your audience. I believe it is a
fascinating story about my encounters with the spirit world. I have no
adequate explanation for them, nor do my parents. I'm not sure what
they represent, or if they are hallucinations, but they appear real.
I am at a loss to explain why I have seen angels, ghosts, UFOs and
disincarnated entities for over 7 years now. Such entities have included:
[a] Allen, my father's father.
[b] Jeff Moritz, the former Flagstaff Peace Officer.
[c] Robert Martin, the former DPS Peace Officer.
[c] Ann, my mother's mother and my grandmother.
[d] James, my mother's father and my grandfather.
[e] "Susan", a guardian angel who first visited me in October 1995.
[f] A Siberian Husky, who first appeared the evening my grandmother
past away (in late-July 2002)
[g] My unborn daughter, who has appeared frequently since October 2000.
[h] Lindsey Chainhalt, who first appeared to me last month.
[i] John Candy, the comedian from various movies
[j] Walter Payton, the NFL athlete from the Chicago Bears
[k] An untold number of ghosts and other apparitions, usually in
graveyards, cemeteries and sometimes during church.
[l] At least three distinct encounters with angels, two in Flagstaff and
one while in Paradise Valley.
[m] One unknown UFO encounter, August 2000, flying overhead
south-southwest at a low altitude, absolutely silent and with no
engine noise whatsoever.
These UFOs flew in formation to form a "triangle", at least seven of them
were present and they distinctly resembled flying saucers seen on
television shows and other UFO reports worldwide.
I have also experienced at least two OBEs and one NDE, where I entered
into a bright light and was shown flashes of my life while on earth. This
transpired while I had briefly fallen asleep, and then I was returned to
my body at the top of my head, to which I received a tremendous jolt and
gasped for breath. When I finally became oriented again, I felt tense and
not relieved at all. I did not discuss this with anyone because I felt I
was losing my mind, or part of my mind.
Additionally, I experienced a vision in a dream-like state in which an
angel with a flowing gown brought my unborn daughter to my side, and asked
her when she would like to come to Earth. She was unsure, so the angel
smiled at me and they reentered the light and then the vision and dream
faded away into oblivion.
In July of 2002, right before my grandmother passed away, I had a strange
dream in which a funeral was taking place and I saw a rose-wood coffin in
the center of a church. There were many people there, and Nana (my
grandmother) was lying in the casket holding a black rose. This was
exactly one week prior to when she did pass away, in July 2002.
As well as the Siberian Husky encounter, I went on a walk the day of her
passing and she kept trying to communicate to me during my long walk
around Flagstaff. I walked from my apartment complex over to Target, and
then around the graveyard near the back of target (I usually prayed at the
statue of Jesus and Mary in the back of the graveyard; I believe it is
called "Cavalry Cemetery").
When I prayed there, I asked Nana for help and advice. She said that she
"loved me", and asked that I go to the end of a long road, near a bench,
and
there I would find a gift. I followed her instructions (she sounded very
far away, and I could barely understand her), I went to the bench I
thought she was telling me about and found a Cabbage Patch doll sitting on
the bench. It was a simple Cabbage Patch doll, wearing a yellow outfit and
diapers. It must have rained recently, because the bench was still soggy
and the doll was as well. I went home and told my friend about
this, and we took the doll home. In fact, I still have the doll to
this day. I'm not sure why my grandmother led me to this doll, or what
significance it has in my life (if any).
In September of 2003, I also had another dream, in which I was walking
through Nana and Hoppo's house looking for them. The entire house was void
of people, and as I was looking around, I remember in the dream that I
looked up at the grandfather clock in the living room and it struck 9 p.m.
As it was sounding the chimes, the phone rang in the dream, and I rushed
to pick it up. No one was there, however.
In a later dream, just before my grandfather, James, passed away,
I had yet another dream in which my grandmother tried to call me on the
telephone and was attempting to explain something to me, but I couldn't
understand her. I still have no idea what she was attempting to
communicate, but she appeared more lively than at any point during the
past fifteen years.
I have also experienced several psychic "flashes" of information, all of
which have come true to some degree. Before she and I broke up, in March
of 2003 (after over two years together), I had a strange psychic flash
that I would be sleeping alone in my bed in Flagstaff, that it would be
the spring of 2003, and that my friend and I would no longer be friends.
This came true. I also had another psychic "flash" 6 months later, in
which
my friend's father raised a glass in toast to me at some sort of wedding,
which (from the flash) appeared to take place in the near future. However,
he was toasting me, not anyone else, which led me to infer that from this
psychic flash I may be picking up information from an event in the cosmic
stream that has yet to occur.
I don't know what all of these experiences mean, nor do I understand them
at all. I don't have adequate explanations for why ghosts, as well as
deceased individuals, feel the need to communicate to me on a daily basis.
I find it unsettling, to say the least. I feel as though I am a conduit
for communication between the living world and the spirit world, and I
don't want to be. I don't need to communicate with them, because they
are always attempting to communicate with me. I have experienced these
things even while on medication for schizophrenia and depression, and
they have not disappeared in the least.
Are my experiences real, or am I hallucinating yet again?
Sincerely,
Paul Allen Panks
dunric@yahoo.com
from Phoenix
--
panks@sdf.lonestar.org
SDF Public Access UNIX System - http://sdf.lonestar.org
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